I Miss You More Than I Should, Than I Though I Could. Can't Take My Eyes Off You.

Blah, sleep is not my thing lately.

My gerbil is going to die like any day now. He has a tumor on his stomach and he's just looking worse and more sick now. And it sucks because I always know that when I go to his cage, he could be dead. And I'm going to miss that little critter.

My stalker, from SHS, went on vacation over break and he gave me a necklace today. And it was sweet, but made me feel awkward. I hate when people get me things. When Nick and I were dating and he went on vacation I like begged him not to get me anything. This kid and I aren't even dating and he's buying me stuffff. Uggghhhh.

I had an anxiety attack last night. Like my first one in 3 months. It sucked. I couldn't fall asleep til 12:30 and then I woke up a whole bunch of times during the night with crazy anxiety and freaking out thinking it was time for school. And I can't sleep again tonight, hence why I'm writing. I wish this fucking anxiety would go away, but I don't think it is ever going to.

I envy pretty people with such a passion. Those people who take gorgeous pictures all the time and always look good make me so effffffing jealous. Blahhhh.

My therapist actually proved to be a real person tonight. She was telling me about her teenage years and how she acts out of work. She's not that freakishly nice person that I thought. Thankk Goddd. Maybe this is actually going to work out.

My mom talked about moving to another state in September. Just to start over. I'm actually thinking about it. There's not that many people who will miss me here. And there's not that many dateable guys here lol. But in all seriousness. I might be gone before Junior year. I just don't know.

Steve was texting me last night saying he wanted me with him. And I wish I could've been there :/

Oh and I want to see The Unborn or The Uninvited. So like if any of you want to see them when they come out, let me know(:

xoxo<3