My Therapist Could Never Classify Conditions, All Right What's Wrong Already?

Seems like I haven't posted in FOREVER!
Well, cause I haven't..

Tonight and tomorrow was the ECA show that I had started practices for.
I feel terrible about leaving.
BUT.. since I've left I've had so much less anxiety, and I'm actually back to all A's like I was in middle school.
Plus, I'm going to more CSPA classes and enjoying them more.
But I still feel like less of a dancer because I'm not there.
I feel like now I'm just an average person, nothing special.
We drove by ECA the other day and I wanted to cry.
I've benefited so much from leaving, but still, I feel horrible about it.

On Sunday in VIPs, Nicole almost killed me.
Well not literally.
We have to do this thing where she holds my right leg and I have to put my hands down like a handstand and pull my left leg up into an attitude (if you know what that means). If she doesn't come close enough to me I'll fall onto my head/stomach, if she comes too close, I flip over onto my back. THANK GOD, we were using the mats. She dropped me at least 5 times before she finally got it. It's a really fun thing though. I can't wait for recital.

Three days of CAPT down. All the writing ones. I think I'm doing pretty decent. Science tmrw, ughhh! Science and math, not my strong point.

You guys have got to meet the bunny I'm bunny sitting! She's so cute. I love her to death. She hops around my floor and she chased my cat through the house the other day. Good, right? Considering my cat is obese.

Stupid Meliss is getting to go to Florida, but because Lindsey did it. She never goes to school, why does she deserve Florida?!
God, FML.
I go to school, get good grades, do extra curricular activities and I get nothing. I barely ever get new clothes, my hair done, my nails done. Like anything, even stuff I need. And she doesn't do like anything and gets Florida, a new camera, new clothes and her hair done.

It's just not fair.
But hey, life isn't fair.

If I wanted to be a failure I could get my therapist to tell the school I'm too afraid to go and I could only have two classes too. But the real world doesn't work like that. So, I'm going to actually do what I have to.

Fuck people who just stay home and hang out with friends because they are too lazy to go to school.