I need to bitch.
Like srsly bad.
So I'm going to, deal.
(This is all the bitching I didn't want to keep private and isn't on postsecret)
Dance was so much easier when I didn't have friends from school there. My dance teacher like expects me to take care of them. And I don't want her to blame me for stuff they don't know / don't do. Tonight, my dance teacher was like, "Is Kayla still dancing?" and I'm like "Yeah." and she goes "Well, she hasn't been here and she didn't pay for costumes yet."
Okay, so seriously. What can I do about that?
Then my dance teacher (at the end of class) goes "Can you help your friend (melissa)?"
Because Melissa doesn't come to dance, ever. And she doesn't know anything. So I (who had thought Meliss had left, but appearntly she was still in the waiting room) told Miss Diana the truth and was like "Meliss never comes to school. She goes M.I.A for weeks at a time. I can invite her over my house to teach her but we tried that with the hip hop dance last year and she didn't do it." So I go out into the waiting room to leave and see her and I'm like 'oh fuck.' So yeah, I feel really bad for talking shit about her, esp. since she heard it all.
I came home. And I just sat. I checked my LJ friends page, myspace, facebook, and myyearbook, and then posted to postsecret. Then I sat and ate an apple, which was my dinner. Because have you ever been so like stressed that it just makes you sick to your stomach? None of what I'm writing is grammatically correct. Sorry.
I just want to scream.
I can't even explain it.
DON'T FUCKING PUT PRESSURE ON ME.
I CAN'T STAND IT ANYMORE.
That's not to everyone, but not to one person.
I don't even know.
I don't want to go to Beka's party.
Everyone's going to be high.
Fuck my life.
I don't want anyone in my life right now.
I just wish everyone would go away for a day or two.
Let me relax, get calmed down.
It's not going to happen.
In the mean time,
if you want to see my dance costumes?
possible extra jazz (jammin by black violin)
top: http://www.dancewearsolutions.com/dancewear/PT2983.aspx
bottoms: http://www.dancewearsolutions.com/dancewear/bottoms/colors/Silver/ML2989.aspx
jazz (let it rock by kevin rudolph and lil' wayne)
top: http://costumegallery.net/supplies.asp?ID=406
bottoms: (same as the extra jazz)
ballet (fragile by delta goodrem)
http://costumegallery.net/products.asp?ID=3201
VIPs (the across the universe song mash up thingy -before intermission)
http://costumegallery.net/products.asp?ID=3196
(^ in either green, orange, royal blue, or plum -we don't know which color we get yet. it will be varied throughout the dance team)
tap (on broadway from smokey joes cafe)
http://costumegallery.net/products.asp?ID=3075
VIPs (diamonds are a girls best friend -opening)
I don't have a link, cause it's not bought from a web site.
But it's fishnets, long gloves, and a black leotard. with some kind of sash around it? idk, the parents are making that part (:
I swear, dance is the only thing that keeps me sane.
Sad, ain't it?
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