You're Awful, I Love You

I've been with my family more in the past three days than I ever have.
But, at times like this when I'm alone, it makes me feel lonelier than ever.

I had a dream last night that I was married to this guy (and had been) and I was soo in love with him. Him and I were at home and someone came in and shot him to death right in front of me. So either, I'm watching snapped too much or this whole death thing is invading my mind too much. Ehh, it sucks. Let's pray this dream wasn't foreshadowing.

A lot of people have been asking about when and where my grandma's wake is. And it was cool and fine until my ex-bestfriend asked.. Like I know she's trying to be nice and all, and she did know my grandmother, but honestly, we don't talk. It would make my grandma happy though. She loved this girl and always asked how she was doing.

There's no way I'm going to pass midterms. I can't even get my mind to focus with everything happening. There's no way I'll be able to make myself sit still long enough to study. And then my first day of midterms I go in knowing that in like 10 hours I have to go to my grandmothers wake. Fucking sucks.

My cousin and her boyfriend of like 3 years broke up. It kind of killed me to hear that. They were so cute together. Reason # 215121215 why I don't believe in forever.

Eh, I'm a depressing person today, so I'm done writing.

P.S- It'd be nice if you'd want to talk to me like you used to. If you wanted to, you'd contact me, and you haven't. I miss how things used to be.

xoxo<3