So Can You Tell Me If I'm Crazy Or Confused?

I'm on the ECA bus, so I have a good and boring 45 minute ride. I figured I could take the time to blog, maybe it'll cheer me up?

I hate crying over Nick.
I hate when I think about the past, and I wish I could talk to him and I start bawling my eyes out.
It makes me realize he won this. He likes making people breakdown and that's exactly what I'm doing.
I hate losing.

I was talking to Carl the other night and he's like "we should hang out sometime." And yeah that'd be fun but it puts Carl at the risk of being hated by Nick like last time, and it makes Nick hate me even more. And I don't know if I should risk that :/

There's like no one on our bus today. It's weird. I miss Tyler being here. I miss talking to him. I'm not a fan of how our bus has changed. I miss freshmen year.

I have my therapist tonight. I want to listen to Tyler and tell her everything. But I'm way too scared. I don't know what they'll do. And I don't think I want to find out.

My friends and I went to see Bride Wars last night. It was better than the last movie I saw in theatres (Nick & Norah's Infinite Playlist) but it wasn't amazing.

We'll, I want to sleep and we just went by the resvoir (sp?!) So I want a long sleeep time.

Hopefully elective share day isn't cancelled becuase of last wednesdays snow :/

xoxo<3