I Knew This Was a Dream, It Was Too Good to Be True. Coincidences Were a Bit Much Too.

I didn't blog yesterday.
That's like a record for me, lol.

So lets start of with the typical Rory stuff.
He wrote "I <3 Nick"
And I gave him a death stare as it slowly killed another part of me.
I mean, don't get me wrong. It didn't kill me because I wish that was true or anything.
I just wish we could start over. Like forget the past, anything we've done.
And just be friends, with no one even considering hooking up or anything like that.
But it's never going to happen.

Even though I feel like I'm still eating too much, my diet is apparently working.
I weighed my self and it says I lost like 2 pounds.
It's a start, I guess. I wish I could lose like 30 in a week. Haha.

I should be showering right now.
I have to teach dance at 10:30.
Well, and then clean when I get home probably.
The way it works in my house?
Nichole straightens up the living room, her room, and the bathroom.
Mom does the kitchen and sometimes Stephen's room.
Stephen plays video games.
Ridiculous.

When I woke up this morning I had an email that dance is canceled for tomorrow.
So I can sleeeeeeep in. YES.

Have you ever felt so extremely lonely that it feels there's like a rock in your chest. Like you are going to explode, but you can't and you can't cry to get it out either.
And It just feels like you need to get away from yourself.
I hate the past and I hate thinking about the past. Not just Nick, everything.
It gives me that crazy feeling inside, like every night.

Well, I have to go get ready.
Uhm, text me today ?

xoxo<3