I'm Not Saying That I'm Giving Up, I'm Just Trying Not To Think As Much As I Used To

Tyler gave me a heart attack.
He changed my myb password as a joke.
I thought it was Nicholas, and I was pissed.
Needless to say, I changed all my passwords (:

My therapist tonight? ALLLLL she talked about for the 20 minutes I was with her was Nick.
GreatFuckingNight.
I've never seriously wished I had never met someone.
I mean sure, I've said it when I was pissed but tonight I actually mean it.
I wish I never met Nicholas Fritz.
I wish I could take back ever writing on his wall, and telling him he was cute.
I wish I could take back meeting him on July 2 (?) and dating him.
And everything else.
Just like he says I was his biggest mistake in 2008, he was mine too.
The one good thing I got from him? Motion City Soundtrack & The Hush Sound.

We're painting my room white tmrw, and buying the Sing It Loud tickets.
Sched.? Around 9 a.m paint the first coat of white, around 12/1 go to Hartford and buy tickets, around 4/5 paint the second coat.
Finnnnaaaalllllllllyyyyyyyyyy.
I bought like hot pink curtains today.
When we eventually finish my room, the walls are going to be light pink & it'll all be white furniture.
Oh and my small wall where the cork board thing used to be will be all mirrored.

Oh and New Years?
I might be able to have a small party.
My mom hasn't given a definite answer yet.
If I do? It'll be like Meliss, Linds, and Kayla.
I think.

I love guitar hero, but as of now I am going to break the drums.
My stress level is sooo high and my brother keeps banging on them.
I'll either kill him or break them. Suggestions?

Well, I'm done.

xoxo<3