Let's start off with the fact that Tyler might have just given me a heart attack with that LJ post. Holy fuck.
I really like being friends with Nick so much more than anything else we've been. I really kind of wish that we had just been friends since July because it's so much more, say.. fun? I was super psyched to come home and show my mom the origami (sp?) cause I felt so special making it, bahaha. I know I'm a loser :) My feet kill from walking today though. Just the balls (is that the right spelling of that?) of my feet because I was wearing my flip flops, but the walk was deff. worth it. I got to meet Tyler's girlfriend Shannon and I really like her. She's a sweetie.
The whole Kate thing. I feel like I've given her enough chances. The first time we met, like as soon as she got there I got stuck in Nick's room with just her cause he and Carl walked out, and when I tried to start a conversation, she was bitchy about it. Then she had an attitude the whole time and decided she didn't like me and left. The second time I was the one who left because things we uncomfortable. Today was not all my fault that she couldn't come over and I'm not taking her bullshit saying it was. Her loverboy Nick could've told me to go home if he had wanted to see her that bad. I would've gone home and not even cared. I had stuff to get done at home that I pushed off until tmrw. I'm honestly never going to like her because I think she controls Nick way to much and I think so needs to stop thinking he's just hers and he's her puppet or whatever. I don't care if she wants to date him, or that she's still in love with him, she has no right to tell him what to do. And I don't care if she sees this because I have no reason to live up to her expectations and to be all nice and happy with her. There's only one person I personally know that hates me so having Kate be another one doesn't bother me. I have way more friends than haters. Just felt like I should get that all out there.
I'm dead beat and will never wake up for dance tmrw but I'm finally having good weekends. The last three weekends have been good because I've been making plans and not wasting time sitting around bored. I'm finally honestly truly happy with my life and how its going. I finally have that group of friends who laugh loud in the hallways and have so much fun together; just the kind I've always envied. Everythings working out just perfect lately :)
Love & kisses,
xoxo<3
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you're completely missing the point. The point wasn't for you to go home, because if I wanted to hang out with Kate, I would've made some bullshit story up about how you couldn't come over so Kate could. You're just making this so much bigger than it is. Because she doesn't control me. At all. I don't let people control me.
ReplyDeleteI do not hate you. I have never said I hate you. I will never say I hate you. If you want to believe that I do, then I suppose that's your prerogative, but that's just your interpretation of reality.
ReplyDeleteI fail to see how the first and second times we hung out are really all that different. In both situations, we were there, one of us felt awkward and left. The only differences I can see are that 1) after the first time, I apologized profusely to both you and Nick, and 2) during the second time, I tried to engage you in conversation several times, and you pretty much shut down. Furthermore, I think the fact that you threatened to leave Nick's house yesterday when you thought I might be coming over just demonstrates that you are entirely unwilling to make an effort to get to know me.
I don't really understand how I control Nick too much. We are best friends, and have been for nearly four years now, but honestly? We don't have that much influence over what the other person says or does. If Nick wants to do something, he does it, whether I tell him to or not. We allow each other to live separate lives, and we don't try to control each other. I don't think I own him, I don't think he's my puppet, and I don't try to control him. I'd like to know why you believe I do.
I don't want to date Nick. I am not still in love with him. I am fairly certain that you pulled that idea out of your ass, because I haven't had feelings for Nick in a long time. I get the impression that you are projecting your feelings, and are assuming that I must only want to hang out with Nick because I'm hoping to hook up with him, just because that's what is true for you. I'd also like to take this time to point out that I am not the one who frequently posts messages on the livejournal postsecret community about how I just can't seem to get over him. That would be you. I have moved on, like an adult, and am interested in someone else. You seem to be having difficulty doing the same, but that's not my fault. Please do not try to assign my name to your feelings. Just because you're still obsessed with Nick, doesn't mean I am. He and I are just best friends. That's all we'll ever be. I'm sorry if you're jealous of our close friendship, or pissed that I've known him longer than you have. I can't just take back four years of being his friend, and I think it sucks that you are so convinced that a guy and a girl can only be best friends if one of them is secretly in love with the other. That doesn't make much sense, and I think it's pretty unfortunate that your perception of the male/female dynamic is so skewed.
I don't understand why you mention that you have no reason to try to live up to my expectations. My expectations of you are pretty much minimal. I expect that you, as any human being, should be polite to other people and accepting of your friend's choice in best friends. I also expect that you, as any human being, should have the decency and class not to threaten to storm off like a child if you don't get your way. The fact that you disappointed said expectations says a lot more about you than it does about me.
Again, I must stress that I don't hate you. I don't feel anything for you. If you are going to mention me in your journal, at least try to stick remotely close to reality.
Okay, I'll try to respond in order.
ReplyDeleteI never 'threatened' to leave. I wasn't like "You better not invite Kate over because if you do I'll leave and you'll be sorry!" I stated that I don't want to see you, and if he wanted to hang out with you that bad I would go home.
As for the you controlling him, 2 weeks ago when him and I hung out and you and him weren't talking, there was no fight. Now suddenly you're back with your whining saying "I was all ready to go. I straightened my hair and did my make up and now Nichole ruined my plans" blah blah blah. Now suddenly he's all pissed at me because I hurt your poor feelings. Newsflash, I don't care. You see him all the time, one day wont kill you.
I don't hang out with him to hook up with him. Did you even read any of the blog except for the part about you? Clearly not. And since you stalk my postsecret posts, you should know that I haven't posted anything about him for like a month or two AND I like someone else. Which you'd obviously know because you commented on the post. I'm not obsessed with him, I BARELY ever talk to him.
"and accepting of your friend's choice in best friends." I never said he couldn't be friends with you, I said that I don't like you. That has no affect on if you two are friends.
Don't be all pissy. I don't have to like you, I've met you two times and I've made an opinion about you. Seeing you 1 or even 10 more times won't change how I feel. Sometimes people don't like you, that's how life works. Learn to deal and stop whining about it.
you're victimizing yourself.
ReplyDeleteShe doesn't control me.
she influences my emotion, yeah, but she doesn't have any say in what I do with my life. Hence it being my life.
Also... you can't say you like someone else when your post secret was you telling the world that you tell him you wear thongs, and now yer creeped out by how obsessive he is.
You just made this a big drama filled story before you even got to my house.
Which is sad, because when we we're fight about this? I had fun. So -shrug- I'm sort of sorry you had to ruin it and make it all dramatic.
my postsecret about him said that I liked him but I was worried because he had never kissed anyone... I never postsecreted saying what you just said..
ReplyDeleteoh, my mistake you told me that on aim. still.
ReplyDeleteI'm not trying to make you hate me, even though I don't care if you do.
ReplyDeleteI just don't understand at all why I have to like Kate and be friends with her to be friends with you.
I don't make you be friends with Lindsey, or any of my friends.
probably because I'd give them a chance regardless of the situation, an d you know that.
ReplyDeleteNick, I gave her chance, and you know that.
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