Can't You See? I'm My Own Worst Enemy. Knock Me Down, I'll Keep On Moving. Cause It's The Art of Losing.

So dance.. I hate my class.
My class has ALWAYS had a drama problem. The girls who have been there forever hate the new girls. I'm sure you've seen previous posts saying this.
We had a class discussion tonight about how Kristi feels people hate her because she's on the staff and I put in that I feel that the old girls hate all the new girls. And Kristi was quick to jump to my defense saying that I've proved myself and I always know the dances. But still, I haven't proved myself to Stephanie. She has no reason to hate me. And honestly, not to sound like a bitch but I think she does get jealous of me at times. Last year I won the Dance teacher's Scholarship Award in my 6th year of dance, and she's danced for almost 15 years and hasn't gotten it. I think she's pissed that I remember stuff that she doesn't at times and that I've done so well in that class.
I found out that Jess hates me because Nick bitched out Jaime last year when I questioned him after Jaime told me some stuff. Apparently Jess sees it as my fault, and clearly hasn't gotten over it.
I hate having friends from school in dance class. Because they never come to dance, and they don't try when they come. Kristi has addressed it so many times, and even Diana. And my school friends expect me to side with them, because we were friends longer. But I side with Kristi, because she's right. I've had to say "I can't, I have dance" so many times. Because dance is what I live for. I know how important it is and how important knowing the routines is for recitals is. And my school friends don't get it. Meliss skipped a make up practice class that she NEEDS because she knows nothing so she could go to the outlets. WTF. Recital is in 2 1/2 months. She still needs to learn the rest of the dances, not counting all the parts of the dances we already know.
I feel so torn. My friends expect me to be on their side, but I honestly can't be. Dance means so much to me.. so much more than anything else ever will. For real, I think it means more to me than getting married and/or having kids.
I remembered parts to all the dances tonight that people forgot. And after jazz Stephanie was actually nice and acknowledged that I was the one to remember.
After I came home from dance I started crying. I can't take the dance class stress anymore. My mom was like "Tell your friends how important dance is to you, and that they need to go" but I can't do that cause they get all bitchy with me.
Kayla keeps saying she's going to Aimee's Academy next year. Which honestly, I don't care. Because she can go screw up Aimee's routines, and take Meliss with her.
I really feel like my only true friend in dance class is Jaime. I love that girl with all my heart.
And Kristi's my friend too, except when Jess and Steph are around -rolls eyes-

In good dance news?
I had to fill in for Jamie Potter's assisting class tonight. Miss Rebecca was happy I was there cause apparently she "needed a break from Jamie." What I heard from the other assistant is that Jamie walks out of her assisting class to talk on her cell to her boyfriend. Miss Becky liked having me there, score for me.
Oh and my neighbor is friends with one of the girls I teach on Tuesdays? The girl saw me today and came over to say hi. It's nice to know that the girls I teach like me. Atleast that makes some people.. Even if they are all between the ages of 6 & 8.

Whatever, I hope you're all having a better day than me.
Love you guys xoxo