Post Number Thirty-Two

Since my grandmother died I've felt so lonely. I just want to be with someone.
I've tried to fill that loneliness with flirting. And that's a horrible thing to do.
I took it too far last night with my texts. You don't say things like that to people who aren't single. You just don't. I'm sorry.
I want to run away. I don't want to be me or be here right now.
When everything started look better, this happens.
I haven't done anything the therapist would need to know about (if you get what I'm saying) since the morning before Nick & I's last big fight. And I want to again, but I keep telling myself not to. I'm scared I'm going to =/
I want my grandma back. I want to hug her.
There's a wake Tuesday night from 7-9. The funeral is on Wednesday.
I don't want to go.