Thursday, January 1, 2009

I'm Trying to Find Out if My Words Have Any Meaning.

Last night was amazing.
We took pictures, attempted to make cookies (but we messed up the recipe because we were too busy throwing flour at each other), made videos, and played guitar hero world tour and American Idol.
I love my friends to death.

And what completely made my night?
Steve called at like 12:20 and said "Happy New Year, babe!"
So I was like "You too, hun!" and then he said something I couldn't understand so I hung up =O
But then I texted and I was like "I couldn't hear you, but Happy New Year!" and he texted back saying "Happy New Year, love!!!"
Seriously. Made. My. Night.

Bee Tee Dubbs,
I'm on ADHD meds now.
Fun stuff?
I only have to take them when I feel like I'll need them. Easy enough.
The anxiety doctor started to ask about if I would take them by saying "Do you know anything about Stimulants?"
And me, being the obnoxious bitch I am goes, "Yeah, my health teacher said they were bad and to never take them."
So then later on he goes "Do you have any boys in your life?"
And I'm like "No."
And he goes "Do you want one?"
And I was like "No."
And he goes "Good. Boys, can't live with them, can't live without them"
So I go "That's in a Britney Spears song!!!" lol.

Mark told me last night he missed having a crush on me.
Cute, I guess? (:

Everyone's following me to blogger?!
Ty's here now, and Nick.
Haha, and lets hope Nick doesn't read previous posts? (:
I wouldn't be surprised if Cariss showed up here too. In fact, I'm trying to get her on here.

My other blog? The title is the date around when the poem was written.
And by that, you can usually figure out who it's about. That is, if you know my past.

I have the house to myself tonight. Srsly, someone come chill with me.

So I'm just sitting here thinking, and it's a new year.
I can start over, I can change who I am.
I'm going to stop being so caught up in my past, and live for the present.
I'm actually going to let guys in, and actually date.
Wow, I'm excited for this year. It's going to be amazing.

But wait, maybe I'm not going to date.
Because I don't take it srsly anymore.
And I don't want to use anyone. I've been used and it hurts really bad. I wouldn't want to do that to anyone.
But maybe I do? You've gotta play the game or you get hurt.
If it's not just a game, and you're into it? You get hurt.
So maybe I will play the game..

I'm jealous.
Like all my friends that turn 16 this year have early birthdays.
Its like January, May & July. And then I'm December.
Laaaammmeee.

Addition to list of cute things
  1. Proposing with a ring from like one of those quarter machines. (but then getting a real ring after)
p.s- after reading Nick's blogs, I almost died laughing. And my mom goes "Maybe that's why he hates you, cause you don't take his stuff seriously."

xoxo<3

2 comments:

  1. Sorry, but I did NOT follow you to blogger.
    I have owned one for a while. In fact, on one of my accounts, I had three separate blogs.

    This one I created to post on Linux forums, because Blogger is slightly more professional than LiveJournal.

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  2. dude, don't worry. it was more of a joke. I wasn't being serious there.

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